seeing Brian has turned into a huge order.
not seeing Brian may turn ou to be easier.
he has developed a girlfriend since the planning started. I'm happy for him and want him to be happy, but there is still the human-girl side of me that will end up down there wondering why he wants her, and why doesn't he want me?

mom and dad continue to be blind to my minor accomplishments. Though I don't expect standng ovations or gifts of gold and frankinsense, it would be nice to know that they are happy for me and proud of me.