it's back.

full force.

i'm dying.

i can feel it in every cell of my body. the urge to die.

and the pills. i just keep taking them. i'm pretty sure i'm at toxic levels of aspirin, and i felt like shit the last few days for it. but i keep taking them. i need help or i need to die.

and i have no one that i can tell who won't react with fear/hospitalization/firing me/ or losing respect for me. this is why i should just die.

easier on everyone.