if you could actually speak your mind fully, what would you tell him?
would you tell him that you sleep better when he's around because just waking from a nighmare and seeing his face makes it okay to fall back to sleep? would you tell him that when he isn't there you occasionally wake expecting him and your heart falters when you realize he isn't, or you're hit with a sudden fear that he left int he night?
would you tell him that when he holds you you can feel yourself melt away into him? that every stress and strain from the day is eased simply by his arms around you? would you mention that his hand holding yours leads to butterflies in your stomach?
would you tell him that you laugh more with him than with anyone else? every movie reference, every silly voice, every mocking dance step causes a smile to creep over the entirety of your body, does he know? would you tell him?
does he know that you try harder for him? that you do things you wouldn't normally because of him? would you let him know that you wouldn't have gone ddown that cliff for anyone else, but that the private beach at the end made all the difference?
would you tell him that you love the way he trains your dog and that NO ONE else is allowed to do that?
would you tell him that he allows you to feel comfortable with your body?
would you tell him you love him?
would you tell him you need to hear that he loves you? he throws the little ones in there, like, "you're dumb, but i still love you".
would you tell him?
what would you need in order to tell him? what would he need to do? what would you need to see, hear or feel?
i'm waiting for the answers and biting my tongue.