getting my bearings

had actual mud kicked in my face today, something I never thought I would have to experience at 28 and 38DD.

Kathy's mom spoke my own words to her the other day. Told Kathy that she was sad because she was no one's number one. K responding by telling her that she must know WHY this is so?! Because of the way she treats people, mishandles people and mother-smothers. Does that mean that I am to blame for being alone. That there are inherint flaws in my personality that keep others from putting me first in their lives.

Maybe I misunderstood.