the move to portland is temporarily on hold

my landlords agreed to lower the rent by $75/month (from 575 to 500), the equivalent of a $1/hr raise at work (which work can't give me just yet).

so, while my social life will continue to flounder a bit, some tension is released.

i was freaking out pretty hard regarding being out of here in two weeks. without a job, without a place of my own, relying on others. that didn't feel good and my mind continued to slip to it's 'pills and blades' way of thinking.

now i can breathe. i can wait to move until i find a fantastic job and an apartment of my own.

in the meantime, if there are any sugardaddies out there in need of a darling woman to spoil once and a while out on the coast....