niki is feeling better. she's doing her best to take over my life, but she's doing better. rita looks at me for all the answers as if i am the expert on suicide. i'm not even the expert on my own, i can't be expected to be the expert on niki's.

portia is leaving in two months.

went out with philosophy boy. nice enough once he loosened up, just not really what i'm looking for. no spark, no connection. and i get mad when guys do this to me.

still holding my breath for pi or toby i suppose.