if you didn't know me... and i sent you an email... an introduction of sorts, chances are you would never write back. trust me, i know this from experience.
i'm sarcastic when i'm insecure and shy. and these don't seem to be endearing qualities to those whom haven't yet had the pleasure.
but when you meet me, you talk to me, when i get that glimpse of first acceptance, then you see the quiet and the fire, the tender and the strong, the contradiction and the balance in my eyes. after that, i'm okay. after that, you'll likely love me.
it's the getting there that most people don't get past.
see, i do a lot of personals sites. mostly because there are relatively few people my age where i am. and even fewer open-minded, blossoming, becoming, and transcending people where i am. and i don't have any problem with making the first connection, with sending a note, risking that void of contact that comes from an unreturned outreach. but i don't write to everyone. i'm not willing to take that risk on 'medicore' (if that's the right spelling. don't judge me!). only 'amazing'.
and then i sit with the void, for a day or two or ten and realize that 1) my humor doesn't translate, 2) that i REALLY wanted to hear from him/her, 3) that if i could have a second chance at that first message, i would take it, in a keystroke.
i see beauty. i see it in eyes, and laughter. in gentle words and fiery passions. i see it quiet. in pain. in healing. the only place i have trouble seeing it, is in me.
so if you get past the first words i send... if you read this... if you have the ability to read me a little... well, we'd be worth the while.
i can rapture you
still you
feed you
and steal you
i can be a luxury--
your decadance
i can be humbling--
your thirst
you're the ticklish wind
that swirls between me
lights and lifts me
cools my tempers
you're the gull
to my ocean
equally resting on and
running from me
you're the sun
generating my gravity
controlling my orbit
burning and leaving me cold
but i am still the moonlight
finding you in darkess
giving you eyes to the unseen
and a hue you're unaccustomed
7 comments:
I think this is a spectacular idea. And I think you are spectacularly loveable. And I think someone will see that. And I think you will be happy for the rest of your life.
That's what I think.
so marry me?!
Sorry. I love everything about you. I just don't want to get to know it intimately.
*sheepishly lowers her eyes and frowns
Is that ok?
fine. but that is the last time i propose to you. just so you know.
it would never work anyway... what with you living 3000 miles away and an aversion to eating pussy.
dork.
love you !!!!
I think that I'd love to be your penpal. You can propose to me any time!
As for the beauty in you... that's what fans are for. And you clearly have some hun.
When I stumbled upon you I was instantly amazed and in awe. You may not belive me but you help to center me. Thank you.
and yes your humor does translate, you will always be worth the while.
NWO: thank you darling. and you would be a phenomenal pen pal. that is, if you can get bast my bad spelling. and hey, you're closer than 3000 miles, and from you blog i know you have no issues eating pussy... danger, you might be next on my proposal list!
Lorenda: wow. thank you. i think that's one of the greatest compliments i have ever gotten from a stranger. i hope i can live up to it for you.
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